Two words: I’m- personal pronoun, combining the words ‘I’ and ‘Am’ together. Sorry- an adjective used to apologise or state an apology. Two words that make you completely vulnerable for a moment to give resolution and restoration a chance to work.
No matter who we are, how old we are and what we’re going through or have been through, it is always going to be difficult to say: ‘I’m Sorry.’ When was the last time you said you were genuinely sorry? When was the last time you used that phrase in hopes to restore trust, peace, love, honesty? The funny thing about apologising is the fact that we lay down our pride when doing so. Actually it's not that funny .... but that’s where the difficulty engenders from .. pride. Oh how that is deadly.
It’s safe to say, I honestly suck at apologising genuinely, both when I am wrong and right.
I recently had a pretty brutal argument which slapped me in the face really hard as a point was brought up about how I was loosing respect for that person and how I lacked in apologising. Although it pierced me that this had to happen a few hours before my exam, it hit me hard. Let's take a moment and thank the Lord that we are blessed to have showers (really) .. after this argument I went straight to have a shower and the thoughts came flooding in. I knew that I had to apologise to restore the trust and restore peace within this relationship. To my surprise, this person apologised first and before I left I came around and apologised too. Really apologised, where I had hugged them and tears were filling up my eyes. Despite of feeling so vulnerable, it was a wonderful feeling to just let it go.
I know it's not much to say but seriously, apologising is worth it. It's never a win or lose situation. There'll always be the times you know you're right but you'll have to make the first move, times where you know you're wrong but you'll have to make the first move and times where you'll need to meet half way with that person. In the end, you need to focus on resolution and restoration.